Mushroom Stroganoff

 

My Fertility Journey Update – Part II

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This Week’s Delicious Recipe: Vegan Mushroom Stroganoff

 

Vegan Mushroom Stroganoff

Eight years ago I got pregnant. The moment the pregnancy test’s double pink lines sunk into my psyche, I started to think of myself as a mum. I was over the moon. The path I saw ahead of me was the realisation of a long-held dream of becoming a parent.  I talked to the little sparkle growing in my womb about the life we would have together and how excited I was to meet them. I was full of joy and wonder at the magic happening inside my body.

And then… I started to bleed.  I miscarried and the budding child I had loved and and nurtured was gone. My world was shattered.

 

The Rollercoaster

Needless to say, I never got pregnant again.

Miscarriage is a massive hurdle that all women going through IVF have to get past. When they put a fertilised embryo back into your womb, you have no idea whether it is viable (healthy) enough to create a baby, or whether your body will reject it part way through the pregnancy, resulting in miscarriage. Having already been through a miscarriage, I know how traumatic that is. Going consciously into a process where you know it’s likely to happen again, and may happen many times, is sometimes overwhelming to say the least.

When I started this journey I joined a number of online groups filled with women who are doing what I am doing.  These women show such huge courage. Failed pregnancy attempts and miscarriages are rife. Women having to give up their dream of giving birth and raising a child are commonplace. After one, five or ten attempts at IVF they are unable to continue due to exhausting  all avenues for raising the finances, or are unable to continue with the physically and emotionally grueling toll of the drug rounds and failed pregnancies.

 

We Hold On As Long As We Can

And then there are the gorgeous photos of the newborn babies that the lucky ones have managed to have.

What I have realised is that we hold on to a dream as long as we can. I am nowhere near done with this dream yet, although I’m more realistic about how long it might take. I have done three rounds of IVF, which produced only one embryo – now in storage. I have no idea if this embryo is viable. After three rounds, I couldn’t carry on. I was spent by the drugs and the emotional roller coaster. I needed a break. I wasn’t sure if I would do any more rounds because it was such a lonely and disheartening process, even with the support of my amazing family and friends.

 

Hope won’t lie down easily

And then I discovered a book called ‘It Starts with the Egg’, which many women swear has helped them have a baby. The protocol specified in the book is supposed to improve the quantity and quality of your eggs, no matter what age you are,  The hope started to rise up in me again.

And so, after a 6-month break trying not to think about my eggs getting older, I have now started this protocol.  I hope to have another go at harvesting my eggs in three or so months, corona virus depending. I have no idea if it will work. It’s possible that the one embryo I already have could result in my child. Miracles do happen, and I haven’t given up on mine yet 🙂

 

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This Week’s Delicious Recipe: Vegan Mushroom Stroganoff

Vegan Mushroom Stroganoff

And now for some yummy comfort food that also works brilliantly as a dinner party dish 🙂 This is such an easy recipe; great for a relaxed supper or for something a bit more special.

 

Ingredients

2 tbsp olive oil
1 onion, finely diced
2 garlic cloves, crushed
1 tbsp paprika
300g chestnut mushrooms, halved
150ml vegan stock or homemade bone broth
1 tbsp gluten-free, vegan Worcestershire sauce
3 tbsp vegan creme fraiche (I use the Oatly one), or 3 tbsp vegan cream + 1 tsp lemon juice
1 large handful parsley, chopped

 

Method

Heat the olive oil in a saucepan. Add the chopped onion and cook until soft and translucent, stirring regularly. Add the garlic and cook for another minute, stirring.

Add the paprika and stir through. Next, add the mushrooms. Cook for 5 minutes, stirring regularly.

Pour in the stock or broth and the Worcestershire sauce. Bring to the boil, reduce to a simmer and cook with the lid off for 5 minutes. Remove from the heat, stir through the creme fraiche (or cream and lemon juice) and most of parsley, keeping a little back to sprinkle over the top once plated up.

Serve hot with freshly cooked rice or a big chunk of fresh sourdough bread 🙂

 

 

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2 Responses to Mushroom Stroganoff

  1. Maryline Favreliere says:

    Hi Saskia
    I am so delighted for you and your journey towards getting pregnant .
    I am now a grief recovering specialist and with my experience at looking into grief ,I was wondering if the relationship with your unborn child was completed ,if the grief you bare after your miscarriage was done . I have seen many women not considering as a loss and push it aside .
    We can have a chat if you want to know more
    Lots of love . Maryline

    • Saskia says:

      Hi Maryline! It’s lovely to hear from you. Thank you for your thoughtful message. For many years I didn’t come to terms with my relationship with my unborn child, or really acknowledge it as such. But early last year I realised that I was still holding a lot of grief around it, so I created a ceremony to be with the experience and to celebrate the connection with my spirit baby. It was very beautiful and very healing. I crocheted a lovely mandala to represent my spirit baby – thinking all the while of her (I felt she was a girl) – and created an alter at the bottom of a luscious mossy tree by the river, with crystals, flowers, a candle and incense. I then spent many hours lying next to the tree remembering how happy I was to be pregnant, and how sad I was to have miscarried – really being with my emotions, letting them flow.

      It was after this healing experience that I made the decision to work on letting go of my fear of losing another baby and to try for a child, so it really was amazing.

      Lots of love and thanks again for reaching out. Saskia xx

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